.

i am ruled by emotions

that rush over me

like a tiny paper boat

in a boiling pot of water.

this rage, depression, self-doubt, apathy and cynicism

is sometimes tinted with

saccharin-sweet laughter.

my emotions are ambiguous, misguided

and float on an eggshell raft.

when it is seized and capsizes,

i flood my eyes with hysteria,

unable to break free from the

nonchalant void i wish to ride on.

i try my darndest to suppress

this juvenile mirage

encompassing my life for the moment.

sometimes it works.

and sometimes i go shopping.