mama said there'd be days like this...

i am a woman of plans.
this is irritating to me
and the people whose company
i enjoy

there are so many hours to the day
that i like to know (if only loosely)
what might occur

this is not to say i do not immensely enjoy
surprises,
spontaneity
and especially serendipitous events
these are after all,
the reasons i have found my
diverse companionships.

it's just,
why can't things be solidified
with a promise
with a kiss
with a hug
with a "i will be there because i equally enjoy you enough to make time for you"?

this is frustrating to me.
i want to stop making plans,
but the thing is
i like making plans.
i like
looking forward to
a coffee
a cigarette
a movie
a dinner
a drink
a walk
a visit
a phone call
from a friend
on the other end of the line
that wants me
as much as i do them

oh hey,

so it's been a while.

seeing as i haven't written much here.

i've been caught up living my life.

getting tattooed.

getting into school.

making friends.

losing grip on a couple.

making love in a new apartment.

playing with my dog.

reading books.

learning spanish.

cooking more.

smiling more.

getting over being the bad part that was me.

and in contemplation for the past month or so,

here's a couple things that...

suit my mood,

use to suit my mood,

and marilyn. just because.

Martinis are a Girls Best Friend

Diamonds are a girls best friend? I think not... just give me vodka or gin :)

James Bond might like them shaken not stirred, but us ladies like 'em anyway. I'm not particularly interested in "girlying-up" my drinks, so here's a few of my favs:

Original Martini

• 1 1/2 ounce gin
• 1 1/2 ounce dry vermouth
• Dash of orange bitter
• Lemon twist as garnish

Classic Martini

• 2-ounce gin
• 1/2 ounce dry vermouth
• Lemon twist or green olive as garnish

Dry Martini

• 2-ounce gin
• 1/4 ounce dry vermouth
• Lemon twist as garnish

Extra Dry Martini

• 2-ounce gin
• 1/2 teaspoon dry vermouth
• Lemon twist as garnish

MORE

Ahemm

perigee and apogee

we were sitting in your car

driving along the coast

watching fire flies and tides

move in and out of the landscape

kind of like that VW commercial from like,

1999 or something.

remember that?

with the people waving their hands

through the air creating aerodynamic waves in the night?

the moon is full and the night is pregnant

with endless possibilities of where we'll go

who we'll meet

where we'll end up

i'm thinking to myself,

"god, i hope tonight's not boring"

we don't really say much to one another

but we both don't seem to mind

the distance between us is actually

kind of peaceful

in fact,

it's probably one of the most peaceful nights of my life.

nice guys finish last.

how do you win the race?

by being nice.

politics

love it when you break the common laws of friendship

walk all over me

in one ear

and out the other

say one thing

do the other

laugh and avoid confrontation

beat around the bush

beat me up and knock me down

and mock me

all without knowing

caring

doing

or saying

anything.